rollercoaster day

Ben is in Port. St. Joe with his Nina this week enjoying some super awesome times with her each day and at her church's VBS each evening.  Jeff and I have enjoyed the quiet around the house, but I have missed Ben something fierce.  I don't think I had realized how much having him around to love on and to care for and entertain had kept me from getting in my own head too much.

Today has been rough for me.  I have been on the phone quite a bit scheduling appointments to meet my doctors in Atlanta (an OB and a Maternal Fetal Medicine doc [MFM]) who will provide my care in Atlanta and deliver Madison when the time comes.  I also scheduled an appointment for Jeff and I to see a pediatric neurosurgeon for the first time on that same day.  This will be the doc that will perform Madi's initial surgery on the defect in her back after she is born and will also provide follow-up care throughout her childhood and adolescence.  After he reviews my ultrasounds and reports for our MFM in Albany, we will learn from him more about what we can expect for Madison after she is born.

So we will spend all day, July 2nd, in ATL going to doctors appointments.  I suppose this is a routine we might become accustomed to once we have little Madi to care for.

I also called the insurance company today because, of course, their website indicated that our ped. neurosurgeon was not covered under our policy.  Thankfully, upon calling, I learned that he is, indeed, covered as an in-network provider, but I was stressing for a while on that one.  I imagine that I will eventually build up a thick skin or some kind immunity to these anxieties...if you know me I am not much for being an anxious person...but those defenses are not yet in place.

All in all, I am ready for this day to be over and I am MORE than ready for my Ben Bear to be back home.  He is my best medicine right now. :-)